‘I’m beautiful because Mama says so,’ I exhale staring at the black near-anorexic image in the mirror and tie my braids in a bun. Maybe if I keep repeating that, I’ll eventually believe it. Suddenly, it dawns on me that Kwenin is waiting in the driveway so I hurry up and meet him with a hug, not too tight. He doesn’t stop babbling about Kafui’s new instagram picture. All his comments are like little needles pricking my healing wound. ‘She’s thick and curvy and everything I can’t be,’ I concede. As we walk down the hill towards our school, Kwenin still talks about the photo. I can’t take it. I know he doesn’t mean to hurt me but, every word, every compliment is like a stroke from the rod of being skinny. It reminds me that I am nothing but just bones. Kwenin never compliments me like this. Maybe I give him no reason to. I am unattractive. The radiant sun does justice to my shea butter pomade and now there’s enough oil on my face to scramble some eggs. ‘We could have just taken a taxi but your stingy self can’t let go of a few cedis,’ Kwenin teases wiping his forehead. If only he knew that I am saving to buy myself the protein-shake Ekow sells for weight gain he will probably appreciate my frugality.
Kwenin is beautiful. His height, smile, golden brown skin and dark curly hair are hypnotic. I love him but not like that, he’s my best friend. God must have created him on the eighth day after he had rested and gathered more inspiration. Last week, Kwenin said he would have dated me if I had more hips. I just laughed then and cried myself to sleep that night. Black girls are curvy. Real men like meat and not bones, right? Got it. Oh and once, he said I would be attractive if I were living in Europe or America. ‘They like slim things,’ he chuckled. It was just a joke. People somewhere will find my skinny body attractive? Wow.
Today, I’m tired. I don’t want to be the skinny girl anymore. I eat. I really do, maybe a little too much. Mama still says I’m her model. She’s the only one who loves me. But Mama’s genes did this to me.
Thank you for reading!
This is my first story on WordPress. Please be darlings and leave comments on what you think. I really need to know.
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Adomaaaa, that’s a beautiful piece ✌🏾✌🏾
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Thank youu!!
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Excellent writing!
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Aww… Thank you so much!
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Great piece! 🙂 It really makes the reader empathize. Well done!
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Thank you!! I’m happy you like it.☺
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Oh nice.you expressed yourself well.I could almost feel your pain.
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Thank you but it’s just a story though. xx
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I’m really impressed such good writing.keep it up
Please start a series 😭
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Hm. I’ve been thinking about that. Let’s see what happens
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I LOVE THIS!
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Thank you so much! This honestly means a lot coming from you.
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Really wonderful…..serious thumbs up….you’re gifted😊😊😊
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This is so nice of you. Thank you!
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Adomaaaaaaaaa!!! This is GREAT!
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Thank youuu!!
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💙💙 this!!😣😣😣
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I guess you can relate
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Sadly yes, from the opposite body size side lool. I wish I was skinny sometimes💙
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I understand. But being skinny can feel horrible sometimes.
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This is so beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time!! You are such an excellent writer! ❤
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Thank you so much Evie!
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This is such a beautiful piece of writing, darling!
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Thank you so much! xx
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A really great piece. Thank you for sharing!
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Thank youuu! 🙂
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That was lovely writing! Side note: I nominated you for the song challenge if you want to do it
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Thank youu! And thanks for the nomination too. 🙂
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You’re very welcome!
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this hit me hard , I feel this way constantly.
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I’m glad you can relate. Thanks for reading.
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Bittersweet. I like it. Also, I nominated you for the Mystery Blogger Awards. See here: https://dainellewrites.wordpress.com/2017/08/07/the-mystery-blogger-awards. Feel free to participate (though it’s not mandatory).
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